Somehow it has already been over two months since I got back from my study abroad adventure and nearly two months since my last blog post. Since then, a lot has changed and I figured that I should probably post an update on my life. I decided to transfer schools last fall since I changed my major. I applied to five schools and got into all but my top choice. I found out while I was in Australia that my top choice school denied me and I was devastated. To be honest, I still am completely devastated but, life goes on. So after a month about thinking of where I would transfer to, I decided on the University of Alabama. I kept it a secret for about a month and a half before I told anyone outside of my parents, and when I announced it, every single one of my friends questioned me on my decision. Now, I dislike the University of Alabama (football) as much or maybe even more than every other Tennessee fan, but hear me out. I got accepted into my home state schools, yet there was no way I would ever be happy there. I am a creature of adventure and I crave to be away from what I know. I want to experience life outside of my comfort zone. I have been to Florida and Tennessee, yes, but that is technically the farthest south I have ever been. The University of Alabama and Tuscaloosa will challenge me, as a person, to step outside of my comfort zone. The thick southern dialect, small town vibes, humidity, and conservative views will challenge every single thing I know. I don’t know how many times I have written this and told it to people, but ‘If you never leave your hometown, you will never find yourself.’ I think this holds true for every single person. You must leave what you are used to, so that you may find yourself and truly see other’s points of views. Another reason for my decision to attend the University of Alabama is because I get in-state tuition and will be able to use my KEES scholarship. With my new major, I am eligible for the academic common market. I will be double majoring in Geography with a concentration in Regional and Urban Planning and Political Science with a concentration in International Studies. I have not decided on a minor yet, but I will have to complete one. Something that bothered me during this whole transfer process is that every single one of my friends was surprised by my decision and asked me, “Why Alabama?”. While the answer is simple for me, it is hard for me to understand where they are coming from. Beginning last fall, I started preaching to people to do what makes you happy and since then it has become my mantra. So much so, that I am going to get a tattoo of it eventually. But this mantra did not start out of the blue, it started because me transferring, was the beginning of my journey to happiness and to doing what I truly love. While at the University of Tennessee, I was unhappy with my major at the time, Nuclear Engineering, and was trying to fit in and ‘be cool’. I used to wear bright colors, along with Lilly Pulitzer, all the time and used to be very preppy. Looking back, I know I was unhappy and I guess the bright colors helped me to portray how I wish I could feel. So, the day I decided I was going to do what makes me happy was the day that I dropped out of all my Engineering classes, enrolled in Political Science and Geography classes, sold most of my Lilly Pulitzer clothing, and called my parents to drop the bomb. They weren’t happy at first, but like always they let me do what I wanted to do. I honestly think they knew it all along that this is what was going to end up happening. I at first told no one of what I was doing, but somehow the truth always comes out. I cried a lot over the decision. I loved my friends at Tennessee, truly, but I feel like I would have outgrown it anyway and the opportunities just weren’t there in the end. Fast forward nearly a year now, and one can see just how much I have changed. I have completely embraced my natural hair, am confident in every single thing I do, and some may even call me a hippy now. I still preach about doing what makes you happy because that is what changed my life. I am now travelling a whole lot more, focusing on my art, and trying to keep creating and branding myself. Earthly possessions do not own me as much as they did anymore and I still love my cats more than most people. I have changed, but to me, I have changed for the better. I have decided to pursue my dreams and honestly, I have not been this happy in a long time. So, with this blog post and the rest of my Lilly Pulitzer, I say Adios! to the old me and welcome to the happy me.
If you want to keep up with me, I have started a Youtube channel and I still post on my Instagram daily. I also put most of my designs on my Redbubble so that they are available to buy.