These past few months the question that I keep coming back to is “Am I doing the right thing?”. As much as I would like to believe that this all part of a greater plan, I find it hard to sometimes. I continually wonder if it’s worth the stress that it brings upon me. Two years ago, as a senior in high school, I had my entire life planned out. I knew where I was going to college and at the time, I knew I wanted to stay there for four years. I had picked a major and a minor and I knew when and where I was going to study abroad. I knew where I was going to go to law school after I graduated and I knew what I wanted my future job to be. I even knew what sorority I wanted to be in. But every single aspect of what I had planned out two years ago has changed and now I’m also asking myself, “Did I make the right decisions?”. These past couple of months I’ve been telling myself that if I could go back two and a half years ago and change everything that I would. I’ve had this thought in my mind that if I would have made the decisions that I have to make now two and half years ago, then maybe I’d be in a better and happier place.
I’ve come to realize that this type of thinking has to stop. John Littlewood, theatre director, once said, “If we don’t get lost we’ll never find a new route.” Mistakes and failures are a part of life and help us to see where we are going. The person who doesn’t make mistakes is unlikely to make anything. My mistakes have taught me that it’s okay to be lost and it’s okay to question every decision you’re making. We are all a little lost, and that’s okay. The mistakes I have made have helped shape who I am today. They’ve introduced me to some of the greatest people I’ve ever met and have finally allowed me to chase my dreams. My mistakes have set me free from my past.
I hope you all choose to see your mistakes the way I do now and let them set you free. It’s okay for your life plan to go off the beaten path and personally, I believe that’s the only way to go. So, say yes to trying something new, go on an adventure to somewhere you’ve never been, ask out that person that you’re keen for. You never know what’s going to happen until you try.